Tuesday, January 10, 2006
changes
when a bitchy orgmate warms up to me, tries to make conversation, actually smiles, and listens to what i say, i can't help but feel that something's wrong..
and i'm not paranoid at all.
same thing with boys i thought were "playing"then started talking commitment and shit..
and that boyfriend who said "I love you" 32 times before hanging up the phone then asked someone else to be his date for a freaking ball..
who built his dreams with me and around me as he placed me on top of the world then left me there alone as he "entertained" others..
and then there's THE guy who i thought hated being tied down then he tells me that there's this house we can rent-to-own for 20 years..
who told me that he is not my possession but expected me to introduce him to my parents as MY boyfriend..
i know. things change. people change. everything changes. blah blah blah. the thing is, changes terrify me. inconsistencies, they freak me out.
not that i'm this predictable person or anything.. i AM unpredictable, maybe. but everyone's used to that by now.. i'm predictably unpredictable. that's okay. i like predictably unpredictable people and things..
i'm a Leo. lions don't like sudden movements.. they either go for the kill or run away.
thought overload @ 5:46 PM |
