Sunday, July 23, 2006
10 days and i will be 22. twenty-two. last year i was just turning 21. tsk.
last year, i had exams and sci papers to submit. i was in an internet shop when the clock struck 12. i was in front of a freaking computer.
nothing much will change this year. add to that the possibility of talking with irate customers. on my birthday. gahd.
last year was sad. it was the first birthday i didn't celebrate with jonas. this year, i'm not even sure if i will be spending it with anyone in my family.. *heavy sigh* or even with japo. i'm sure i'll be seeing gracelle that day. and monette. so that's a happy thought. my parents kinda said we'll just be celebrating on the weekend after my birthday. but that's not my birthday anymore. it will be like lighting up sparklers on the weekend after new year's eve.
it's a good thing that japo has been very supportive with the emotional slips i'm having lately. not to mention him saying that thoughts about marrying me has been running around in his mind for the past few weeks. and him telling flavi to ask me if he can go out with the boys last saturday night. and him saying "ano pa hahanapin ko?" =) and that i'm beautiful and smart and interesting and "mabait" (whatever that meant) and sexy and that we have so much in common that's why we'll never get bored with each other and that he really believes we'll end up together. =) and that he wants to marry me. and that "nagkaka crush na din ata sya sa'kin". harhar. =D
i knew it. *triumphant laugh*
so now, we wait for - uhm - 3 years? *pouts* tsk. i'm looking at the bright side. i have 3 years to make the perfect wedding vow. i will so have the most beautiful wedding vow ever. i so will. he has been bragging that he already has one (and using it as hostage so that i'll behave: if i don't behave, i will not hear it. tsk.)
so let's go back to my birthday. the wedding can wait (but sometimes i feel like i can't). i have absolutely no plans for the day itself. it feels weird if i plan something for me. it's my day, i'm not supposed to worry how things will go. but i do want to have dinner with my parents and sisters, japo can be there too. or maybe japo and i will have lunch. then a movie. then i want to go to enchanted. then i want to have a full body massage.
*yawn* i have been awake for 19 hours already. i'm only running on caffeine right now.
expect more thoughts the next 10 days. my birthday is very, very important to me. and i do not see why it shouldn't be important to anyone who bothers to read this.. =) so there.
thought overload @ 11:28 AM |
